UntiltheEnd

快乐的清泉

! P$ f% O0 m  K7 L: l) cMeridian's linen, candles, Ryder's cologne. 22nd birthday, "too fancy" after. Miles, a Ryder, room. saving, archive, lunch, this: a they'd it, theirs.

. f& u! r8 l! T' k3 S5 WThey'd a a a a month. prices, said, "Just this, okay?" him, night, anniversary, perfect. year. midnight. a he'd months, idiot. alley. Hard. Urgent. he'd weeks. "You this, nerd?" asked, back, up, ribs. a yes. bed. "Jesus, Miles. a demon?" glasses, pink. He'd petals, he'd bag. "Shut up. It's anniversary. I perfect." strides, that, trying, grace. Miles's big, hands. died. him. slow, first, a lips, deeper, it.
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"It is," Miles's mouth, chest, he'd unraveling. other. Ryder's first, shoulder, forearm, a for. fingers, hands, them, Miles's a year.

0 B- g# m  P! S, I) W* a9 ["You're nervous," said, a question.
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7 p4 n: h! n7 d  |0 p"I good," admitted. "I want...I don't know. I matter."

"It matters," simply. "You matter. matter." Miles's knuckles, one. "Now here." bucket. one, ice. hit. thunder. thunder'd trains. construction, either, up. else. unmistakable, a a thing. a year. much. couldn't screen, faces, indifference. love, lives, they'd a control: jobs, apartment, other. met, they'd anyway, other, a world. explosions. frames. softly. froze, Miles's hip, waistband. "What fuck..." explosion. time. once, twice, held. swayed, noisily. window, carpet. Below, wrong. a seeing: skyscrapers, flashbulbs. thick, sky. flickering, waves.

Sirens. frantic, a direction. him, Miles's waist, shoulder. Miles's neck. "That's... fireworks."
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Miles's it, it, logical. A explosion. A attack. river. fires. smoke. once. explosion. by. a , chemicals, carpet. a heartbeat, city. violently. Ryder's back. life, professionalism you'd a this: "This... emergency. evacuate. stairwells. Don't elevators. Please..." Static. silence. thick, suffocating. heartbeat, ears. Ryder's together, spine. explosion, closer, bones. feet. below, pavement.

Ryder's tightened, Miles's ribs. "We go. Now." didn't move. couldn't skyline. A he'd a times, a a bar. they'd date. side, orange, floor. streets. height, a hill. intersections. sidewalk, open. A overturned, abandoned. time.
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8 `2 _3 e/ V; L. x5 X"Miles," urgently, before. Fear. "Buddy. the..." yet. close, building. instantly, darkness. a moment, nothing. in, shadow. a water. shattered, flutes. a crack.

. d. e. g; Q5 Z* q; o2 y! c"No. Fuck. No." around, shoulders. Miles's glasses, steady. Focused. moment, hair. "What?"
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' _5 n7 Q7 I5 h+ b# w" M7 O4 D( ?"No," repeated, time. Calmer. "I'm that." chaos. "Not tonight." face, panic, shock, wasn't clearly. look. "You're serious." up, Ryder's jaw, there, lip. "We've night. stupid, a year." didn't shake. "I'm today." them, protesting. distant, gunfire, screams, terror. fire. hard, shaky, Miles's shoulders. "Fuck. Okay." once, disbelieving, awe. "Okay. You're insane, that?" fierce, he'd it. "You out?" bed. rough, firm. a sometimes. willingly, mattress, him, air. time. person. a skinny, glasses, a smile. quietly. who'd Ryder's universe.
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: Y( R! \1 H6 _' m; @"Are this?" asked, low. scared, exactly. it. a breath. Ryder, him. Ryder, again. eyes, torso, a read. weren't Ryder, were.

"Being you, this," quietly, "it's whatever's there. tonight, have? I there, me, but..." closer, Ryder's hair. "This better. Us, together, end. I'm sure. I'll insist, I standing." legs, Ryder's hair, Ryder's catch. Outside, burned. Inside, said, absolute: "On me."
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$ i; i& I4 f& p; e/ P$ l3 ARyder's hitched. world, he'd half, orders. tall, , ink. He's a Miles's him. they'd themselves, charge. way, a doubt, them. didn't go. boy. trust. who'd him. a second, there, in. Miles's cheekbone, certain, it. Miles's confidence. ok, them. a word, fibers. Miles, waiting. belt, them, Ryder's face. now. nervousness, certainty. "Look me," said, did. Ryder's mouth, in, slowly, reverently. effort, a year, a them. Miles's hair, forcing, holding, both. a hips, Ryder's , himself. outside. hall. guests, assumed, they'd told. suite, differently. hear. "You me... me... good... I much..." a throat, once. back, Ryder's slick, rough. hair, firm, deep, Ryder's tongue. "I you," mouth. "Whatever happens. I you."
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"I too," managed, wrecked. "Miles, I..."

"Shhhhh..." hissed. carpet, everything. couldn't to, smoke, fire, they'd known. him, skin, Ryder's back, hips. "Fuck, hot. me?"
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Ryder's cracked. "Always." time. slowly, carefully, did, to. reassurances, Ryder's spine. hands, carpet, hard. in, first, a him. him, Ryder's shook, forward. chin, up. "Look," said, window. "Look us." reflection. apocalypse. lean, a sky. him, skin. Together.
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& s( R, e9 b  m1 j8 ~- w"Look are," breathed, move. deep, ecstasy. back, Ryder's neck, enough. rush. weren't anymore. them, moment. something. them.

Outside, sky. groaned, protesting. didn't stop. pace, insistent. Ryder. responded, made, it, Miles, air. last. came, Miles's name, cock, back. later, could, Ryder's blade, "love you" skin. carpet, gasping. Miles's point, didn't care. mattered, Ryder's his, directly.
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Outside, disturbing, final. a minutes, longer, feet, bed. together, naked, breath. bucket, sheets, Ryder.
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4 U& O' T2 ~) s; y( C9 g$ Z+ y; X"Our broke." chuckled. "Fuck it." a drink. lips, bed. laughed, laughed, night. darkness.

"You're a influence." bottle. "An adorable, sweet, sexy, influence."

"Yeah, well." drank, cold. "I I a boy." laughter, explosions, room. covers, champagne, warmth, comfort, together. a didn't away. "When down... shit... floor..."
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"Yeah? We're game? bed... fire! underwear!"

"That that." stories, other, laughed... a lot. gone, minibar. And, outside, hadn't could. not? do? this? them, other's voices, pieces.

% F( V. k: |" I' Y9 I7 @% V5 w) p"I we're now." wondered.

"Only you." playfully. slowed, a while. now. wasn't long, themselves. now, overhead. chest, spoon. tight. chest, body. hotel.
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; g% u3 M# Q" p6 G1 r, l4 _Ryder's spoke. "Happy anniversary, nerd." hand, lingering. "Best ever!"

"You're crazy," said, smiling. voice.
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3 b; a& f( b: b0 v+ f" y9 R/ @' H"Yeah, well. anyway."
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. z( m! I7 Z5 c' I9 v0 W* ]8 U& R"I do," said, words. "I really, do." a time, end. outside, darker. burning, collapsing. sirens, either. drastically. shattered, room. bed. room, covers. left. out... somewhere. mattered.
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1 b2 Q. V! g- A/ F( |" L1 u"Do hurt?" quietly. "At end? quick?" considered. "I don't know. depends. 42 up. a anymore? We're together. That's something."
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9 T: _. X+ T1 v. D8 T"Yeah," said. Miles's, tight. "Yeah, does." again, time. a thunder. again. closer, neck, in. skin, palm. "I'm I'm you," whispered. "If this, I be. I'm it's you." Miles's temple. "There's I'd you, Grayson." laughed. "That's anyone's me."
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5 s! V0 Y  p+ _, l# e"I it," said. "Every word." again, again, comforter. earnest, them, further, floor, tighter. night, hour, moment, world. them. end.