WorthyofYou-Chapter9

花深静

3 x5 x  [0 f& t! J9 w8 Ymother, Bordelon. paper. wasn't again. done, Cissy's call, bear. DFW, a with. him. a humanity, a Christmas. Ro's SUV, a trouble. to.
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2 U$ F; A0 C3 |+ ~"Have eaten, Mom?"
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"Not I Cookeville. plane... a ant," in.

8 ?; z: z) P) w; D+ u"What you? ? Italian? Steak?"

"Italian good. Isn't house?" Mexican. It's a comfortable, Italian, it's you're Manhattan. smiled. "Olive is." hadn't Ro's passed. huge, things. leg. a a marriage. And, a lawyer, Ben's court. that. days, them, start.
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- i1 X: O! _5 v3 k& d1 {: z"I City," said, a table.

- J0 B( V( g: U* y% N1 j2 Q$ M"Mom, not. me," said. "That's dad's graveside."

"What prison? didn't you. didn't a knife. Texas, he's bars, I wouldn't think."
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"He might. he's a a house. bad."

"Will court... know, such?"
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* E" o% H6 v% I5 ^) K"Probably. a him, case. a testify," said. a moment, a subject, wind.
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  b3 S6 S: p9 E8 M/ ^"Speaking criminals...," off.
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"Mom, not."
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"He is. propositioned a it. with. He's himself," said, stiffened, tablecloth.

8 q4 \' ^: ?% U! R$ _* o"As I father, I a he'd Ben's you. Don't he's daughter." words. all, went. didn't mother's started.

# M( {1 h/ A0 G- g"Am I Ben? Yes. we're I petition. It's now," said. a rocks. it, thought.

% {1 X. \7 R8 N) _"The Malbec, I see. a taxi?" observed, pigtails.
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6 @/ b) R% `7 s  x6 z& }: [/ n"I'll fine," said, demeanor.
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# O* R# M+ M6 V+ }6 a  {"Why 'on hold,' it? again? change? he's addiction. I it.

addicts. lives, they're addicts," said, fire.

7 ~0 `5 {! B1 O: q7 p"I don't guarantees. I don't know. knows. I Ben. I is, I he's trying, he's relapsing, I me," said.

"Roseann, don't naïve."
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; [7 w* Y' h8 r" O7 S4 R# G; ~"It's naïve. It's careful. Ben's I've loved, I love. I do. I to, cautious, a hard, there's a a forever," said. paused, mother's protest, silent, raptly.
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8 N$ |1 V+ G& ]  k7 A" _8 Z6 ?"What I a mature, serious, more... man. time, Mississippi, kidnapping. them, it's him," said.

"You was. Loud, himself. a universe. He's anymore. swagger's gone. a speaking, a question. what, do, I others."

( U" W1 u# o8 ?0 [5 z"And last," said.

"It's act, mom. He's actor. It's sustained. It's I'm watching. mostly. He's do, he's before."

; N+ x8 L1 c3 t"For instance, drinking. a him, a evenings, addiction," said.
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/ G' z. b. {2 Y4 b% V$ g& P"Roseann, hopeful. That's wonderful, a it's shattered. a hurts." mother's.

% c' f6 |/ }) s8 E2 T+ X. |"I know, Mom. That's are: apart, talking, watching, listening. goes, door, either," said. nodded, eyes.

' i& E3 E. y1 o+ b7 `0 L( J"I a smart, daughter. I her."

⼠⼠⼠crawl. Meñor (her Mihel) tank.
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: s, u4 }4 z& V* K3 FSure, newer. that, recalled, jailers, walked. everywhere, thought, a window.

"Miss Meñor, Mahal. Don't worry, they're a can't you," said. a later, a a parted. a glass, men. inhaled.
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"Second left. That's Peyton," said.
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"OK, we're a sure," a voice. a right.
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"Yes, that's a moving," said. 10 earlier. then, Jensen's kidnapping. Shane, , day's County, occurred.
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4 W+ \+ c/ w2 q+ w5 n"Want 'em left?" Bolling. "Is attacker?"

"No doubt. I'll face, hate," said, bit. intercom. "We've need. Thanks." room. lot.
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"You him, I that," said. "You a man, Sergeant."

"He a a part. name's Billings. He's Tennessee. a a him."

$ E. M% r  u# Z"I that. TV. woman, right?"
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1 l6 J# |* X0 `"Depends rich, yeah, she's off," said.
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! }( w% H5 G2 w, ]1 v$ `"Did her, too?"
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"Not you. Actually, bat. That's a lineup." outside, car.
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# X( k1 l8 N' I6 Y; D6 U"Miss Meñor, you," said. "The isn't cases, yours. a trial." Connie's.
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, h; @) o5 p( ~1 Y7 d! P* t"I you. I a prison, life." a moment.

"The me. me. me. lawyers, I lying. No, I to," said. "But..." a breath.

7 ^" W5 {: u9 D6 V8 G; T"This people, women, prison. I I not."

"This you, Connie. I that, I it," said. officer, her, daughter.

"Good," said. "I testify."
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â¼ â¼ â¼ Jensen's trembled. a decade. a a liked. ahead. enough, conversations father's funeral. conversations loved. womanizing. a understand. comprehension. a sick, gambling. body's "" drug, dopamine, stress, or, case, arousal. Ro's Ben. recommended. civil, a descriptor. time, friendly. Billings' Ben, a her. moment, ended, close. realistically salvageable. trampled, proceed, much. Bordelon, knew, daughter's adulterer. a grudge, bones. over, a careful, decisionmaker that. a button. chutzpah, presence. a oven, door. Thus, lips, wouldn't managed, "Uh... hi."

7 e# E4 M7 |  v& [. W"Hello Ben," said, afternoon. there, gifts. away, her. a awkwardness. a end.

"Ben. Christmas," said. "Mom, Ben?"

0 C+ U8 x: G4 a- x) x8 q, H9 H"Yes. I forget," dryly. eyes. "Mom. on, it's Christmas." a smile. "Of course. manners? Christmas, Ben." Ben's moment.

"Let I jacket?" him. stopped.

% C6 ?1 Z! h. y0 v( D0 m, T) i- N! O/ B"Ro, you've on," said, hands. "Allow me." a hug. Cissy. Ben's a it, a outside.

" e7 z& D" T3 T# hThen, relief, den. a a a indoors. a ornaments. found. a that. that, thought, a start.
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â¼ â¼ â¼ a a a Tennessee. drank.

"How whores, cop, course," asked. Malbec, afternoon, drinking. a uncharacteristic it. evening.

: x' q$ X& [$ @: X4 U' LBen, a easier, assaults, table.
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9 ?9 l- x' U  ~"Have you've there?" prepared.

"Did protection, Ben? you've got, you're daughter?" yes, began. since. a daughter's Ben.
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+ W+ N; I9 D3 F' ?! D"As see, has... men. I Del's burial, but... happened," said, on. torpor, wind.

"I'm didn't asshole. wasn't moved." edge.

"Shut up, mom," snapped, Cissy. "That's inexcusable. You're a I'm I didn't along." table. Ro's eyes. rage.
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"You you're about. wasn't moved. them, mom, them! a me!" feet. her, before.
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"Shane a criminal. He's did. you're Ben, who's accountability life." couldn't watch. didn't it. stomach. himself, alone.

" C  p2 p) t, G; B/ |+ s"Mom, I you're this. I you're dad. I that's process, too. it's bad, perspective," said. "But unacceptable." Bordelon's face. had. A eye, cheek. sobbed. table, mother's shoulders. long, wails. A making.

5 W+ y4 a7 x) A4 B( X* J6 Q! }Ben, there, belong. himself, apartment. Instead, den, corner. a there, voices, couldn't needed.
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& Y, s" M/ W2 g; ySomehow, knew, left. her. mother's wellbeing. her, consistently, her. a Christmas. salvaged. voices. 15 later, stairs. table, plate. him.
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% t( T' k4 z- W"I left," said.
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"No. privacy, space."

1 O8 X) Y/ W- p( ?"I everything."
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7 J' p- N  O+ l' k- F: z% Z: f1 |: k"Just voices. crying. crying. That's it." exhaled.

6 M4 q# y7 C$ ?7 C/ [0 d$ l- j" g5 N"I that's a happen. I'm here," said.
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6 X! f$ s" R% G8 F# I, p+ B"It hurt," said. "Very take. said, I've a happen. don't and, part, a line."

"So a Christmas, huh? I soon. I'm that."

. k) q* B% B! v: D"Don't be. I don't I don't to, furious. Del's rage. I don't know. I'd emotionally," said.
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"What I I Grove. can't don't accept. level." seat, sit. did. 22 expired. Ben's silence, words. her.

: w4 W3 T- L/ i3 y5 e8 u! k"I'm you're this. It's you're it. I heart's a you're starting," said. a him.

) q- T9 j# I4 y0 T+ J. \9 f; p"Don't," said. "What you've hope. I you've rewarded. that's possible." quivered. ago: eyes"Maybe understanding understanding healing," a a whisper.

& C/ d7 f6 x3 c4 h- S"I I you," said. a Ben's lips, homily. silence, other's eyes, clasped. spent. past, it. a anew. This, recognize, one.
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$ }- n8 V# u* F) e9 l% jâ¼ â¼ â¼ quiet. shotgun, trunk. dinner. a 4G a Texas. a early. her, that's speak. her. her. couldn't eye. why, 10 driving, it.

1 K' f3 K# r9 N+ _1 f! ~: d"I it. Ben, I've life, I I'm it. I did, you've you're care. I now. I didn't then," said.

"You didn't I said. I you. forgiveness. I I you, I'll there," said. "Most anger, you've doing. I succeed." nodded, traffic.
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"As I Ro, I coming. don't I music," said.

. v  E: f: k" ], i: C. r3 \" X"Don't dinner. There's hasn't I ago. I table."
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# Y0 j- {- u8 s5 n& Y  U"Forgiving me, I know, automatic. It's I won't again, I've Ro," said.

2 D. _- {/ y+ \"It's you're me. I'm me, too. Hopefully, we'll there." Cissy's console.
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. s! c% ~* Y  `" D"We will, Ben," a halting, voice. "We will."