WorthyofYou-Chapter9

花深静

mother, Bordelon. paper. wasn't again. done, Cissy's call, bear. DFW, a with. him. a humanity, a Christmas. Ro's SUV, a trouble. to.

  @4 V) J  q8 d& G"Have eaten, Mom?"
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' }8 P, e  H8 o/ a"Not I Cookeville. plane... a ant," in.

"What you? ? Italian? Steak?"

"Italian good. Isn't house?" Mexican. It's a comfortable, Italian, it's you're Manhattan. smiled. "Olive is." hadn't Ro's passed. huge, things. leg. a a marriage. And, a lawyer, Ben's court. that. days, them, start.
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" q+ h* k& h5 a* l"I City," said, a table.

$ ~  D8 \) c1 Z"Mom, not. me," said. "That's dad's graveside."

  y9 M# _; F- s"What prison? didn't you. didn't a knife. Texas, he's bars, I wouldn't think."
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7 I5 T1 g6 ^" x, R' p"He might. he's a a house. bad."

4 D9 h# }% b7 @, S$ Q6 @& F"Will court... know, such?"

7 T% a% G+ A1 c5 D+ x"Probably. a him, case. a testify," said. a moment, a subject, wind.

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2 Q! [( U' I% o* }"Mom, not."
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"He is. propositioned a it. with. He's himself," said, stiffened, tablecloth.

$ g1 s( g) c' }2 i"As I father, I a he'd Ben's you. Don't he's daughter." words. all, went. didn't mother's started.
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5 y; X, V+ c7 O- v"Am I Ben? Yes. we're I petition. It's now," said. a rocks. it, thought.

. _% V/ D# q3 d4 s"The Malbec, I see. a taxi?" observed, pigtails.

: E' V* {+ U5 Q) e% _) V0 R"I'll fine," said, demeanor.
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' e0 ?( q2 ?0 H' m, N"Why 'on hold,' it? again? change? he's addiction. I it.
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: W! U* R- e( ]1 b$ k3 Z9 b" Q0 a' R5 naddicts. lives, they're addicts," said, fire.

"I don't guarantees. I don't know. knows. I Ben. I is, I he's trying, he's relapsing, I me," said.

& P) K3 T' t) L"Roseann, don't naïve."
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# ~* G8 j# s+ d  A& f"It's naïve. It's careful. Ben's I've loved, I love. I do. I to, cautious, a hard, there's a a forever," said. paused, mother's protest, silent, raptly.
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"What I a mature, serious, more... man. time, Mississippi, kidnapping. them, it's him," said.
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"You was. Loud, himself. a universe. He's anymore. swagger's gone. a speaking, a question. what, do, I others."

"And last," said.
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! I# s1 U1 G4 {& ?: {, L"It's act, mom. He's actor. It's sustained. It's I'm watching. mostly. He's do, he's before."
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; p% ]" d0 w" @  r"For instance, drinking. a him, a evenings, addiction," said.

5 H6 [6 h) d7 q, S# A+ A"Roseann, hopeful. That's wonderful, a it's shattered. a hurts." mother's.
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/ I2 |: K+ ^- R. u2 v3 e3 ~6 I4 C"I know, Mom. That's are: apart, talking, watching, listening. goes, door, either," said. nodded, eyes.

"I a smart, daughter. I her."
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Sure, newer. that, recalled, jailers, walked. everywhere, thought, a window.
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"Miss Meñor, Mahal. Don't worry, they're a can't you," said. a later, a a parted. a glass, men. inhaled.
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"Second left. That's Peyton," said.

# g4 _( W' f" U0 W6 f/ L2 c"OK, we're a sure," a voice. a right.
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"Yes, that's a moving," said. 10 earlier. then, Jensen's kidnapping. Shane, , day's County, occurred.
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"Want 'em left?" Bolling. "Is attacker?"
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8 h& w, C# Q# a* d; Y"No doubt. I'll face, hate," said, bit. intercom. "We've need. Thanks." room. lot.
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9 x3 K9 n2 b: G# c6 U  u"You him, I that," said. "You a man, Sergeant."

"He a a part. name's Billings. He's Tennessee. a a him."

) b6 G- q* M( `- H& \1 C+ G$ w"I that. TV. woman, right?"
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; w" L7 Z0 v# E  Q- }: @, }9 J"Depends rich, yeah, she's off," said.

"Did her, too?"

2 U6 E  U: f3 X! m: K"Not you. Actually, bat. That's a lineup." outside, car.

2 U5 F7 [  p# L: s$ D"Miss Meñor, you," said. "The isn't cases, yours. a trial." Connie's.
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  W9 p9 Y! Q& G"I you. I a prison, life." a moment.

"The me. me. me. lawyers, I lying. No, I to," said. "But..." a breath.
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" _; X8 u- u; Y! o1 A3 r7 f"This people, women, prison. I I not."

. y( K; n1 I7 b"This you, Connie. I that, I it," said. officer, her, daughter.

3 e. D7 o) y% N* a+ g% |+ j& a1 w& Z"Good," said. "I testify."
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, u, P( E* G! Vâ¼ â¼ â¼ Jensen's trembled. a decade. a a liked. ahead. enough, conversations father's funeral. conversations loved. womanizing. a understand. comprehension. a sick, gambling. body's "" drug, dopamine, stress, or, case, arousal. Ro's Ben. recommended. civil, a descriptor. time, friendly. Billings' Ben, a her. moment, ended, close. realistically salvageable. trampled, proceed, much. Bordelon, knew, daughter's adulterer. a grudge, bones. over, a careful, decisionmaker that. a button. chutzpah, presence. a oven, door. Thus, lips, wouldn't managed, "Uh... hi."
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, y% Y0 ~  j. K! X"Hello Ben," said, afternoon. there, gifts. away, her. a awkwardness. a end.
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"Ben. Christmas," said. "Mom, Ben?"
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( b6 P2 E. J& b" e$ X5 C"Yes. I forget," dryly. eyes. "Mom. on, it's Christmas." a smile. "Of course. manners? Christmas, Ben." Ben's moment.
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"Let I jacket?" him. stopped.

"Ro, you've on," said, hands. "Allow me." a hug. Cissy. Ben's a it, a outside.
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& U8 F* r5 O, D4 x, x4 _Then, relief, den. a a a indoors. a ornaments. found. a that. that, thought, a start.

â¼ â¼ â¼ a a a Tennessee. drank.
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3 i6 o2 n7 I+ d/ e"How whores, cop, course," asked. Malbec, afternoon, drinking. a uncharacteristic it. evening.

* W3 T) B# d7 \7 Z3 X% gBen, a easier, assaults, table.
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"Have you've there?" prepared.

"Did protection, Ben? you've got, you're daughter?" yes, began. since. a daughter's Ben.
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"As see, has... men. I Del's burial, but... happened," said, on. torpor, wind.
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"I'm didn't asshole. wasn't moved." edge.
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"Shut up, mom," snapped, Cissy. "That's inexcusable. You're a I'm I didn't along." table. Ro's eyes. rage.
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"You you're about. wasn't moved. them, mom, them! a me!" feet. her, before.
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# g- y+ W; a, ]8 t9 G% Q"Shane a criminal. He's did. you're Ben, who's accountability life." couldn't watch. didn't it. stomach. himself, alone.

/ E! V# H! {$ \' f"Mom, I you're this. I you're dad. I that's process, too. it's bad, perspective," said. "But unacceptable." Bordelon's face. had. A eye, cheek. sobbed. table, mother's shoulders. long, wails. A making.

5 w) i6 s7 S7 T/ J5 DBen, there, belong. himself, apartment. Instead, den, corner. a there, voices, couldn't needed.

/ N& K" C4 q6 c/ N) J8 i/ CSomehow, knew, left. her. mother's wellbeing. her, consistently, her. a Christmas. salvaged. voices. 15 later, stairs. table, plate. him.
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' j. N( b$ m' v/ d& S! r" x"I left," said.
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"No. privacy, space."
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"I everything."
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"Just voices. crying. crying. That's it." exhaled.
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! o; H3 L& W( q1 p"I that's a happen. I'm here," said.

' t% f0 d! u% A$ h- f  ?9 I- g( r% M"It hurt," said. "Very take. said, I've a happen. don't and, part, a line."

  @  }' H* `  n0 v0 ^- o$ ]"So a Christmas, huh? I soon. I'm that."
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! z  ^9 D8 r  |! X5 Z/ ]& y' `( ~. Y"Don't be. I don't I don't to, furious. Del's rage. I don't know. I'd emotionally," said.
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"What I I Grove. can't don't accept. level." seat, sit. did. 22 expired. Ben's silence, words. her.

6 ^6 d- M, v$ f7 b1 Z"I'm you're this. It's you're it. I heart's a you're starting," said. a him.

1 x! z) M* d( m  f"Don't," said. "What you've hope. I you've rewarded. that's possible." quivered. ago: eyes"Maybe understanding understanding healing," a a whisper.

"I I you," said. a Ben's lips, homily. silence, other's eyes, clasped. spent. past, it. a anew. This, recognize, one.

â¼ â¼ â¼ quiet. shotgun, trunk. dinner. a 4G a Texas. a early. her, that's speak. her. her. couldn't eye. why, 10 driving, it.

1 R" c% I5 c1 B"I it. Ben, I've life, I I'm it. I did, you've you're care. I now. I didn't then," said.

"You didn't I said. I you. forgiveness. I I you, I'll there," said. "Most anger, you've doing. I succeed." nodded, traffic.

"As I Ro, I coming. don't I music," said.

! D( h% V" M2 |0 [% A"Don't dinner. There's hasn't I ago. I table."
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"Forgiving me, I know, automatic. It's I won't again, I've Ro," said.

! S" ^8 T6 Z% S- u6 M! l" g"It's you're me. I'm me, too. Hopefully, we'll there." Cissy's console.

8 }) ?& w9 W* s& C"We will, Ben," a halting, voice. "We will."