IShouldn'tHaveSaidAnything

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0 [% A5 p, A; v& m* f- II've I tracks, hell. I that's I I wife, Vicki. I marry, I'll a side, I what's tracks.

- N* O4 d7 t% e, g& }"That , Tal!" other's episode. "Haven't months? right. I "

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/ B2 l+ O; z% Z5 j( J' Z* B5 K"Wait. What? Who's Eddie, right?" I softly, a brain. land. room, I face. visage.

4 O  G$ N6 m8 q' Z! ?8 l"'ve a months, he's marriage, amazing, haven't they?"

3 I! l! K5 x4 {I a lover. I know, I a stroke. I wherever, I slowly, statement. herself, and, a bitch, I hadn't a stroke: a lover, Heston, a worker. bedroom, we've him.

1 d" v7 B( C5 W4 T"Well, I mean, I parts, pin, , will," explained. for... I don't I wife.
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" huh, a any, I suppose, divorce," I quietly. "I mean, especially, I parts, but, yes, you're right, pin." silently, eyes. I pillow.

; \3 t% F/ A* j$ r( M"I shouldn't anything."
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"That's there."

8 G8 `- p$ i. E5 x1 l0 l% |"Huh? I don't it. I wouldn't anything, wouldn't a divorce."

"We're a anything. We're a me. That's shouldn't done."
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4 N  }$ N; }( J) u; A"Well, yeah, I didn't you..."
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"It wouldn't do, we'd here, I'd throat." eyes. I remorseful.
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# F5 ~! ^% o1 P( E"What e, a marriage. a professional, office, gain."

"It wasn't that," said. "He me. me..."
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0 x8 D  `2 L* E: Z"Yeah, bed," I back. "It that. a kingdom. pussy... pussy... right... a marriage. I was, I otherwise."
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"It's a marriage, Tal. a spot, I hadn't him, assessment," whined.
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7 s+ D3 t1 \: c; v"What sex, I share. missing, I marriage. I wasn't affair. well. did. Hasn't months?"

"I'll I so, I I wrong. months... otherworldly. hand... gutter," I said.
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"How that?" squeaked. "I you. I've you, months."
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. J3 ?( O' K& `3 W8 s"You're a woman, Vicki. You're sex. a gutter. me, couldn't that. man!"

3 a  g0 Q. r& w" f"Now you're seem... tawdry. that," said. "I a school, I a old. He... spirits, I a woman, sexy. me... I you. lately. that."

* i0 q5 Z/ ?/ U' ~4 m! A4 B"I good... thought... wrong. weren't me... seconds, too. I'm husband. I'm a spark.

"So, Mr. Spark, me, I wouldn't amped? That's part. That's rationalizing man. fact, I'd that's started... fucking... hasn't lovemaking." I me. I point, didn't anymore, wasn't change. Still, hurt.
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$ N. s* z2 E9 w"Fuck," I whispered.
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"I don't a divorce. I you, Tal, don't so," said. "I him, can... a professional, together. Please, baby."

"Your thing, different, saying, 'actions words.' You're remorseful. now, don't actions. I, hand, do."

) o) A3 @; }/ I: ^I slowly, dressed. I a hallway, a left. I about, shut. , right. marriage, a match.

7 ]1 n8 g7 ^8 v9 u" U2 F3 |I wasn't a week. meantime, I room, I house. I home, talk. I grumbled, agreed.

; l# N0 W8 |" R7 q* ^I wasn't didn't a divorce. me, decisions, blah, blah, blah.

"Bad decisions, that's a affair?" I incredulously. "That's me? didn't help? I'm husband. me. don't some... dick, literally.
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"Explain happened, Vicki, don't facts."
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I I a didn't divorced. didn't me, I her, Eddie.

"This a , Vic, don't divorce," I said. "It's a you." I together. Eddie, a keep... together, worlds. I I shouldn't shocked, I I earlier. a lying, cheating, time, I I her.

"I'm sorry, Vicki. I won't B," I her. a house, money. I a Eddie. talked, future. say, daughter, Beth, up. I didn't intentionally bus, I didn't divorcing. Vicki's daughter's decision, it. I apologize, possible, I them.

I before, I a husbands, a away. I a guy, outcast. "couples' things," a a wheel. I it. some, I it. I others. I left, ex, a I'd married. away.

  P# X6 f/ v/ z$ a0 bI a bit, wasn't a life. I shy. I a a crash, I called't Heston.

"Her she's Warner, 'ICE' contact," said. "It's this. called, that."
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* y$ O1 W* q8 X7 `( P$ O& bI I down. hospital, I Vicki's a injuries. I I I more.
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2 D" M! |$ ~2 H' dA Vicki's I hospital. I I Vicki's contact, I listed, injuries, a larynx. a overnight.
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& ^8 j, A2 o3 B, a8 B- KI doctor's Vicki's injuries, larynx. I'm a trade, I've sports, I beat, I a a wasn't devastating.
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' S% g5 }  l1 ?: {+ j"So... wasn't a belt, wasn't driving?" I asked, coyly.

"No," away, face.

"The didn't hijinks," opined.
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% Y$ y' M. \9 K) Q, x5 n"So... she's wife? a attorney?"

"She's ex. I'm I'm contact. I replacement. Eddie... Heston?

"I can't with, I hall, who's his... umm... equipment, cut." last, reaction.
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1 \6 p, X! U9 I: z: M"Younger guy?" I asked. "Noticeably ?"
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"Yeah. she's ex, then?" asked.

6 H( W* J* r/ _I nodded. sadly. I a a ex.

/ z7 z( v5 K9 i4 ["She won't a while. communication a two," said. Vicki's a I room. I hospital.

"I you've contact, phone," I explained. "They me. Heston? I now. guy?" questions. I answers. grimaced, embarrassment pain, I guessed, type.
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"Eddie back. me. I a him. marriage," typed.

"That hurt, guy," I I reading. nodded.

"So who's hall? life. He's up... a pain." furiously.
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8 J" d+ g; a; `, M. W  s: @"No, didn't occurred. I've happening."
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"You're this?" texted.

"They you've accident. time, that's tell... but... really, Vicki, son. you're now? a doing."

" M  b: [; {2 g"Today's a men," typed. "If I a shot, I've game."

"God age. younger, vital, marriage," I out. "So you're a dicks. Damn, woman."

3 A: B3 t3 T: p, C* s8 bI wasn't life. I a , a , me. I a a a pub.

I I myself. : hair, eyes, a a small, a ass. 100 pounds. head, a ID. I ID. a would.

"? Oh, no," I brightly.
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" L% P" v2 S9 {. zI printing, IDs. hands. card, card, did.

"Damn," whispered. "I underaged... lost. drinking?"

"Whatever she's drinking, tab, Arnie. I'm tonight. I haven't a I a ago," I said. me, legs, a so.

"I'm Chloe... Chiang."

0 z5 [; i# v# Y: X5 y: |3 o"Of are. I'm Williams," I said, a exquisite, much.

7 |* Q. V  M4 t. KI 18 I because, frankly, spirit. wasn't pretty. I stiff, couldn't long. I I Charming. hours. I drooling. I I've a woman... hell, a a Friday, accepted. a met. a a legs. drool, goods. I looked, I a a half.... a evening, I direction. I shrugged. a dream, life. astronomy. I "good girls" overachievers academically, a teasing. "Fast Furious" virginal. Damn, I I a a girls.
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. O5 `* e4 `9 I* V  DYes, date. a conclusion. I evening, me. shirt.
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a tease, bed: uninhibited, giving, I apartment, , pants. Fuuuuuuuucccckkk! apartment. minutes. I up, I mouth. I'd a noise, throat. I happened. I hers. meantime, lipsouth. I didn't her, I wasn't either.

I a monkey. I cheeks, reciprocating me. wasn't I with, I'd a divorce, none... none... moment. tasted... fantastic. I a man. moaned, shrieked, juices. I a me, I I seconds. I senses, I crotch. unintelligibly.

I orgasms, screams, sensitive.

0 i8 v1 L' \- l2 h* `/ m& ]"In me, now... please!" shrieked.

I didn't encouragement. I again, earlier, I a time, twice, cowgirl. maniacs, release. I later, life. down, me, minutes. mouth, again. time, down, "" went. I upstroke, downstroke. I night, I a a while. night. I dick.
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"Oh, hey," innocently. "Part attention, I..."
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5 U  Q. u) ~; R) _8 c"What? a night," I brightly.
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"Indeed." first, bed. didn't switch, again, a dates.

"Can I a favor... a favor?" date.
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  m1 l' }5 Q5 V7 w" ~' q9 a/ n"You anything," I responded.

"Would a Mai?" shyly.

"A 'date' date? dates? I something..."
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  W' V1 i$ m% A"We do, I'm this," responded.

/ E4 `7 _: G4 p"I we've something, isn't single, I be... you, I mean, she's age, stuff. She's mom's hot.

"Call a niece. I aunt, I a man. Let's I've thoroughly."
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"Pretty hot, huh? Really? she's hot?" I queried.
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"You I wouldn't you, Tal," said. Chloe's aunt. said, age, a younger. genes, I figured. a style. a a restaurant, a a thighs. a Chloe's, years.

4 e! W' v: \' j"Chloe braless, I a a basis, you," I date.
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. v3 }+ B7 v7 W" n& ^"Better?" a smile.
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"Better, you've go," I confidently.

"Yeah. a bastard. women, hotties?" was. 10 a earlier. didn't time, a started. me, previously, Asians, admitted, a household.
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"I'm prejudiced. I've a ones, I a Chinese..."

( T  v% M. i& l' p' m"Stop. I it," I said. "I communities." didn't night, a I door. I a night.
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I I shouldn't surprised, I I aunt. Or, accurate, I aunt.
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"Isn't something?" phone. "I you'd her. she's now?"

I hadn't I off. Yes, that.

"I a nervous, I didn't early," I answered. "She's was. I'm rush."

+ U5 B- J  o. W+ G2 }"You me," rejoined. "Oh wait. a rush." uproariously. I date, I Chloe, consigliere.
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"Don't pressured... niece. you're it, let's it," I her. down. a air... sexually. I hadn't a a year, quickly. I lips. Chloe. playing. I morning, Mai's a mine. I her. comfortable... right.
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/ Y( t+ R5 X& I# x+ E! o"Chloe guy. didn't lie," a said, 'old guy.'
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& ~# u; l  b4 h8 r6 b"My 23 healthy," said. "She together, her. I'm a older, a vigorous. I won't off, I I night." sex, I couldn't out, I it. , tactile. time: arm, shoulder, chest, hand, lips. others. I I connection. I I it. it, it.
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"We it, Mai. Tal's yours. you," a smile. else, I eyes. I someone's "everything."

, M5 |! F2 t! P. X- ?! G. VI dating. well. I Mai's family, mother, , Chloe's parents, a , children. appropriate, mentioned.
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I'll a I Mai's family. conversations Chinese, I together, there. a laughing, a chopsticks. I I'd a I a basis.
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2 G% F# R' X/ M# \* QI didn't family. direction, mother, evening. awkward, least. bed. mother's house, sitting. awkward... me. I didn't head.

I wasn't wasn't usual, loud. I a a a circumstances maybe... maybe... effort. wasn't conscientious a couple. performance, didn't breakfast. I a more... subdued, smiling. Mai's a nod. I a thing. small, a side. daughter, a friends. a 48, I I I 23. a I wedding. dance, I lessons, future. I down? Exactly, I couldn't.
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I event. a bucks, I'm I dead. didn't midnight, 4 A.M. before.
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"I I can, I don't again," me. "I I'm dust." later, married. arrangements, wife, I bills. ex's help, mother.

4 O" k& I/ k( w9 S# G# II I money's event. I hilt, reveler. I two, a third. weren't floor, parents' table, teenagers. wasn't normally, seen.
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I elbow, a agitated. Yeah, I'd before.

& L# B* t' e9 ?, m0 Z0 h"What, Vicki? Isn't plan?" I asked, tone.

"Do here?" growled. "You're a yourself."

"? Really? I won't it, me, and..."

1 I: H/ E1 C3 b"That's are, Mom. isn't it? No, really, it, spectacle, you," daughter, bar. "Just know, Dad, I'll we're married... I that." room, I I Vicki's grind.
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Epilogue: couldn't own, Beth's children. Grandmai, her, "her boys," older. domain. part, I I wife, I a gym, Mai. I a circle. married, me, I I returned, something. I possible, there. date: fuck. 50s, I uncomplicated sex, Citizenship. I that. moments, that.