IShouldn'tHaveSaidAnything

雨暖

I've I tracks, hell. I that's I I wife, Vicki. I marry, I'll a side, I what's tracks.
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! @1 f  ^+ c# X$ I- X3 S  A  m"That , Tal!" other's episode. "Haven't months? right. I "

I words, enthusiasm, I didn't I a time.
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4 D8 @0 C7 n6 I/ o"Wait. What? Who's Eddie, right?" I softly, a brain. land. room, I face. visage.

"'ve a months, he's marriage, amazing, haven't they?"

' i' c! Q& ~8 {" kI a lover. I know, I a stroke. I wherever, I slowly, statement. herself, and, a bitch, I hadn't a stroke: a lover, Heston, a worker. bedroom, we've him.
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"Well, I mean, I parts, pin, , will," explained. for... I don't I wife.

" huh, a any, I suppose, divorce," I quietly. "I mean, especially, I parts, but, yes, you're right, pin." silently, eyes. I pillow.

- [0 p: W; A8 K' s& J: C"I shouldn't anything."

$ S7 g2 E1 {  ]$ Q, v$ a8 {"That's there."

"Huh? I don't it. I wouldn't anything, wouldn't a divorce."

" k, n) L, _& z# i  n4 G"We're a anything. We're a me. That's shouldn't done."

"Well, yeah, I didn't you..."

"It wouldn't do, we'd here, I'd throat." eyes. I remorseful.
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. t% b7 H6 i7 L% g4 ~6 b7 h( T4 x"What e, a marriage. a professional, office, gain."

( o/ v6 p3 |9 k  b& A; p$ C) ^0 T"It wasn't that," said. "He me. me..."

"Yeah, bed," I back. "It that. a kingdom. pussy... pussy... right... a marriage. I was, I otherwise."

"It's a marriage, Tal. a spot, I hadn't him, assessment," whined.
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"What sex, I share. missing, I marriage. I wasn't affair. well. did. Hasn't months?"
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3 |3 w) H0 H) \2 K2 C"I'll I so, I I wrong. months... otherworldly. hand... gutter," I said.

6 H2 \7 u! r+ M' s4 N" t4 [$ k) V% b"How that?" squeaked. "I you. I've you, months."

"You're a woman, Vicki. You're sex. a gutter. me, couldn't that. man!"
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+ p4 W2 g2 G- i) M2 i9 c"Now you're seem... tawdry. that," said. "I a school, I a old. He... spirits, I a woman, sexy. me... I you. lately. that."

5 ~5 {; k, I# l/ F: N7 ]"I good... thought... wrong. weren't me... seconds, too. I'm husband. I'm a spark.

2 s3 l' r8 @# Z; t"So, Mr. Spark, me, I wouldn't amped? That's part. That's rationalizing man. fact, I'd that's started... fucking... hasn't lovemaking." I me. I point, didn't anymore, wasn't change. Still, hurt.

1 y" ^  J" m" [6 V2 v$ c"Fuck," I whispered.

"I don't a divorce. I you, Tal, don't so," said. "I him, can... a professional, together. Please, baby."
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"Your thing, different, saying, 'actions words.' You're remorseful. now, don't actions. I, hand, do."
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I slowly, dressed. I a hallway, a left. I about, shut. , right. marriage, a match.

I wasn't a week. meantime, I room, I house. I home, talk. I grumbled, agreed.
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I wasn't didn't a divorce. me, decisions, blah, blah, blah.

"Bad decisions, that's a affair?" I incredulously. "That's me? didn't help? I'm husband. me. don't some... dick, literally.
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"Explain happened, Vicki, don't facts."

I I a didn't divorced. didn't me, I her, Eddie.
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"This a , Vic, don't divorce," I said. "It's a you." I together. Eddie, a keep... together, worlds. I I shouldn't shocked, I I earlier. a lying, cheating, time, I I her.

6 L8 i& u. k8 g; S4 ^"I'm sorry, Vicki. I won't B," I her. a house, money. I a Eddie. talked, future. say, daughter, Beth, up. I didn't intentionally bus, I didn't divorcing. Vicki's daughter's decision, it. I apologize, possible, I them.

' d% v( M2 |) j( \( V3 CI before, I a husbands, a away. I a guy, outcast. "couples' things," a a wheel. I it. some, I it. I others. I left, ex, a I'd married. away.
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, W  A$ l) I- f& g; _6 \1 i% L$ Y" f# qI a bit, wasn't a life. I shy. I a a crash, I called't Heston.
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"Her she's Warner, 'ICE' contact," said. "It's this. called, that."
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I I down. hospital, I Vicki's a injuries. I I I more.

/ \0 r- C7 c, W- T) q: sA Vicki's I hospital. I I Vicki's contact, I listed, injuries, a larynx. a overnight.

I doctor's Vicki's injuries, larynx. I'm a trade, I've sports, I beat, I a a wasn't devastating.

/ c5 |  M* P0 k! w  d! d, R* l* T8 \"So... wasn't a belt, wasn't driving?" I asked, coyly.
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"No," away, face.
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"The didn't hijinks," opined.

"So... she's wife? a attorney?"

"She's ex. I'm I'm contact. I replacement. Eddie... Heston?
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"I can't with, I hall, who's his... umm... equipment, cut." last, reaction.
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"Younger guy?" I asked. "Noticeably ?"

- B; ~+ |% `1 t3 |6 I& `: s"Yeah. she's ex, then?" asked.

I nodded. sadly. I a a ex.

+ z$ X3 ^2 ^4 Q4 X* X* X"She won't a while. communication a two," said. Vicki's a I room. I hospital.
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"I you've contact, phone," I explained. "They me. Heston? I now. guy?" questions. I answers. grimaced, embarrassment pain, I guessed, type.

"Eddie back. me. I a him. marriage," typed.

"That hurt, guy," I I reading. nodded.
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& }; P: j9 n" m( n8 I- J"So who's hall? life. He's up... a pain." furiously.

"No, didn't occurred. I've happening."

"You're this?" texted.
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"They you've accident. time, that's tell... but... really, Vicki, son. you're now? a doing."

"Today's a men," typed. "If I a shot, I've game."
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"God age. younger, vital, marriage," I out. "So you're a dicks. Damn, woman."
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I wasn't life. I a , a , me. I a a a pub.
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4 K1 n+ A, {9 s& `. i1 [% @I I myself. : hair, eyes, a a small, a ass. 100 pounds. head, a ID. I ID. a would.
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"? Oh, no," I brightly.
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I printing, IDs. hands. card, card, did.

"Damn," whispered. "I underaged... lost. drinking?"

"Whatever she's drinking, tab, Arnie. I'm tonight. I haven't a I a ago," I said. me, legs, a so.

& h/ A+ v* P7 Y"I'm Chloe... Chiang."

"Of are. I'm Williams," I said, a exquisite, much.
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9 j0 q. L3 h+ _& ]* |I 18 I because, frankly, spirit. wasn't pretty. I stiff, couldn't long. I I Charming. hours. I drooling. I I've a woman... hell, a a Friday, accepted. a met. a a legs. drool, goods. I looked, I a a half.... a evening, I direction. I shrugged. a dream, life. astronomy. I "good girls" overachievers academically, a teasing. "Fast Furious" virginal. Damn, I I a a girls.
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Yes, date. a conclusion. I evening, me. shirt.

a tease, bed: uninhibited, giving, I apartment, , pants. Fuuuuuuuucccckkk! apartment. minutes. I up, I mouth. I'd a noise, throat. I happened. I hers. meantime, lipsouth. I didn't her, I wasn't either.

  H& M+ y. b7 }7 f0 aI a monkey. I cheeks, reciprocating me. wasn't I with, I'd a divorce, none... none... moment. tasted... fantastic. I a man. moaned, shrieked, juices. I a me, I I seconds. I senses, I crotch. unintelligibly.

I orgasms, screams, sensitive.

( ~1 j: Q  z; u1 b7 D4 U5 X"In me, now... please!" shrieked.

I didn't encouragement. I again, earlier, I a time, twice, cowgirl. maniacs, release. I later, life. down, me, minutes. mouth, again. time, down, "" went. I upstroke, downstroke. I night, I a a while. night. I dick.
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"Oh, hey," innocently. "Part attention, I..."
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I down, ride.
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I later. did. I amazement.

"What? a night," I brightly.
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6 E& Y+ c' g  B# ?" M"Indeed." first, bed. didn't switch, again, a dates.
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"Can I a favor... a favor?" date.
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"You anything," I responded.

"Would a Mai?" shyly.

# y' @+ I; i  J/ E* B3 I( r9 z. j"A 'date' date? dates? I something..."
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( G' i9 L: I$ b8 P"We do, I'm this," responded.

' }1 {* E3 c& Y6 Y& P"I we've something, isn't single, I be... you, I mean, she's age, stuff. She's mom's hot.

"Call a niece. I aunt, I a man. Let's I've thoroughly."
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"Pretty hot, huh? Really? she's hot?" I queried.
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# C7 Z5 I& {! o0 _"You I wouldn't you, Tal," said. Chloe's aunt. said, age, a younger. genes, I figured. a style. a a restaurant, a a thighs. a Chloe's, years.
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"Chloe braless, I a a basis, you," I date.

I restaurant, a cleavage.
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5 t8 u* j6 P6 z  P# t7 N2 z# Q"Better?" a smile.

"Better, you've go," I confidently.

3 @3 \/ x' H; g# i( q"Yeah. a bastard. women, hotties?" was. 10 a earlier. didn't time, a started. me, previously, Asians, admitted, a household.

% S+ t+ O- _" j+ ~"I'm prejudiced. I've a ones, I a Chinese..."
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  z# ^: c, p/ |! }* O6 W9 z"Stop. I it," I said. "I communities." didn't night, a I door. I a night.

1 I* h0 t/ G$ JI I shouldn't surprised, I I aunt. Or, accurate, I aunt.

"Isn't something?" phone. "I you'd her. she's now?"

I hadn't I off. Yes, that.

"I a nervous, I didn't early," I answered. "She's was. I'm rush."

: s7 ]1 c( I/ r7 D. W"You me," rejoined. "Oh wait. a rush." uproariously. I date, I Chloe, consigliere.
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6 [  a8 N) _! z- j% x7 L"Don't pressured... niece. you're it, let's it," I her. down. a air... sexually. I hadn't a a year, quickly. I lips. Chloe. playing. I morning, Mai's a mine. I her. comfortable... right.

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"Chloe guy. didn't lie," a said, 'old guy.'

"My 23 healthy," said. "She together, her. I'm a older, a vigorous. I won't off, I I night." sex, I couldn't out, I it. , tactile. time: arm, shoulder, chest, hand, lips. others. I I connection. I I it. it, it.

"We it, Mai. Tal's yours. you," a smile. else, I eyes. I someone's "everything."

% H7 \3 I& g1 W6 s- k& s" `% SI dating. well. I Mai's family, mother, , Chloe's parents, a , children. appropriate, mentioned.
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# ?9 d6 k6 o" f% y  I7 J. xI'll a I Mai's family. conversations Chinese, I together, there. a laughing, a chopsticks. I I'd a I a basis.

2 |$ N' E3 O5 W2 F! Q7 JI didn't family. direction, mother, evening. awkward, least. bed. mother's house, sitting. awkward... me. I didn't head.
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I wasn't wasn't usual, loud. I a a a circumstances maybe... maybe... effort. wasn't conscientious a couple. performance, didn't breakfast. I a more... subdued, smiling. Mai's a nod. I a thing. small, a side. daughter, a friends. a 48, I I I 23. a I wedding. dance, I lessons, future. I down? Exactly, I couldn't.
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I event. a bucks, I'm I dead. didn't midnight, 4 A.M. before.

"I I can, I don't again," me. "I I'm dust." later, married. arrangements, wife, I bills. ex's help, mother.
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2 g8 s1 X' e% ]- A# w! \. RI I money's event. I hilt, reveler. I two, a third. weren't floor, parents' table, teenagers. wasn't normally, seen.
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I elbow, a agitated. Yeah, I'd before.
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, R7 D4 y* N4 v3 K" c0 B! }"What, Vicki? Isn't plan?" I asked, tone.

"Do here?" growled. "You're a yourself."

"? Really? I won't it, me, and..."
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, X! z# T/ y% q9 F"That's are, Mom. isn't it? No, really, it, spectacle, you," daughter, bar. "Just know, Dad, I'll we're married... I that." room, I I Vicki's grind.
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! |$ C( D) M* R# ?+ Z8 vEpilogue: couldn't own, Beth's children. Grandmai, her, "her boys," older. domain. part, I I wife, I a gym, Mai. I a circle. married, me, I I returned, something. I possible, there. date: fuck. 50s, I uncomplicated sex, Citizenship. I that. moments, that.