BlackRosePt.17

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window, a jugs.

What? hours.

I weeks.

I dreams. I awake. thirsty. entered, a a plate.

'Morning,' said. 'I breakfast.' up. a cheese.

'I'm a bath,' Sophy. 'Apart else, smell, there's that. Also, I one.' ate.

'How you,' said. whole. rested. happened, I it.

'You sleep,' said. nodded.

'I hadn't a while.' a shrugged.

'This a while, Freya,' said. 'You've part. happened. mostly, just, yourself.' myself? I a warrior. I harm. nature.

'Listen,' said, 'while sleeping, I a things. a worm, you. So, means, a cheer, don't a this.' honey. sustaining.

I I now.

'I'm serious,' said, forward. 'We iron, you're not. I you're today, weren't you're iron, downstairs, I you'd now.'

slowly, her.

'Speaking which,' said, 'what's with... him?'

'

,' said. '

Cook. too. out.

'

'I'm him,' said. 'Get it. miles?' nodded.

'That's something,' said. 'I that.' I that, thought.

But, also. ago. inn. I me. flinch, stayed, back. I leave. bread.

' me,

' quietly. a weakness. smiling.

'It's so,' said. 'Maybe that, time.' eyes.

'Oh, another,' scoffed.

* scowled, butter.

'All right,' said, hands. 'One a time. you've breakfast, a bath. bathroom's there.' door. nodded.

'I'm duckling,' said, out.

*** later, Sophy's chambers, belt, robe. neck. her. a time, surface, up, a breath.

*** hallway, waiting. feet, go.

A a stew, a a you'd grave. fallen, a eyes, ever, a warm. again. waking, eggs. Aelfrethe, wasn't bad.

Footsteps. up. Sophy. down.

'All right, squireboy,' said, 'let's talk.'

*** a a parchments. a desk, cups. city. it. Memika's smell. tea, a desk, it, seat, a thing, front, Five, direction. cool, nervous.

'What's again? Seven? Eleven? Thirteen?'

'Five.'

'Five. Yes.' tea.

'I a your... chief, there, yesterday,' said. 'A talk.'

'A talk?'

'Yes.'

'I mean, don't talking, her.'

'I know. I her. that, me.'

'But, right?'

'No. I mean, she's generally, her.'

'If you've...'

'Peace, kid,' said. 'I I'm doing, I'm her. It's nice, truth. uncomfortable. I mean?' her. you...

'Okay,' said, easily. 'Let's now. I do, me, words, can,

saw. I won't much.'

'All right,' said. 'Where from.' thought.

'From mountains.'

'All right,' said. 'Well, I Snorri's squire, I kitchen, I'd duty.'

*** back. a moment.

'I mean,' said, 'was right.'

'Well, said, I don't honesty.'

* squire. unshaped, soft, vague, yet. there, other, down, miserable. red, twisted, shake.

'Why didn't anything? didn't we? shit. worst, I've done.' nothing. a moment, Five's sobs. together.

'I'm a soldier,' said. 'Anyone that. I cook. I clean. I walk, I've out. I'm soft, I can't a shit. I her. her. didn't.'

'Hey,' softly. her.

'You didn't nothing,' said. 'You there.' shrugged.

'Why,' said. puzzled.

'Why what?'

'Why'd out? away, seems. didn't too?' puzzled.

'But, I mean,' said, 'she alone. Couldn't there.'

'That's I'm saying,' said, forward. 'All guys, leaders, soldiers, there. up, didn't them.'

'I mean,' quietly, 'I dunno. But... I her, I over, I dead, I buried. then, I weren't, I I her. also...' think, angry. her.

'They too,' said.

Interesting, thought.

'So a little, you, I'm that.'

'Maybe a that,' stoically.

'If so,' said, 'it a thought. I life.'

* Right, beautiful.

'All right,' said. 'Heed now.' hands. upright. gaze.

'I arrangement. I don't is. I she'll time, you, that's she's like. I mean, I'm right, aren't I.' smile. chuckled. Five's quietly.

'But I you, now, her, can.' nodded.

'She chief, grievously. I you, people, you, blah, here, forget, I honest, don't themselves.

'So I here. happens, honest. that?'

'No,' said. 'I don't anything.'

'You're right,' said, warmth, 'and that's you're job. So. it?'

'Yes, ma'am,' Five.

'Good you,' said, forehead.

*** gone, write.

Memika, 15th dears,

I well. I hospitality, sponsor. a me. I informed. I of. mayor. so, win, a Memika. fortune, intentions, history. remember, year, appointments, endings, leavetakings. hospitality, minds! sisterhood, eternally.

Sophy's anguished, desperadus! Happily, proprietorship. Accordingly, note. philosophical reflections. I you. soon.

Love,

S.

*** 2: Memika. Ragasz. sea, refreshing, Ragasz, road. cart, driver, a prude. a sheet, forehead, fascicle.

*** [Cormac wrote], one, at. Sveikas, handsome, dancer. Titas. a clown, Avleen. energetic, a a minute.

We'd kids, course, Dohy'd gibberish. Fool, nonsense, onstage. wasn't with, a a a one, do. question, I concerned, was: do?

I wasn't lithe, air, was. I wasn't imposing, was. I wasn't nothing, could. I wasn't beautiful, twins. I didn't a talent, did. one, roles, me. by, I wasn't I do. do, bodies, a have. perfection. people, shoulders, jump, people. bodies, nerves, do. shoulders, you'd them. else's hands. else's you. this, included. us, at, I didn't to. *I* do. so, by, I didn't I for.

I wasn't a anymore. was, I wasn't a neither.

***

I morning, else, me. apple.

'Here,' said. 'Tecknor.'

'What it.'

'Why grumpy.'

'I'm not,' I said, annoyed.

'Well, now,' said.

'I now, I'm grumpy.'

'I that'd work,' said.

'Bugger off,' I said. 'I'm busy. Don't do?'

'I've 'em,' said. 'Is 'cause you're harness?'

'It's fine,' I said. 'I'm I'll it.'

'Find what?'

'Whatever I'm at.'

'It's look,' said, a expression.

'That's helpful, Avleen. It's you, you're at.'

'I 'cause me,' said, stalk. 'You did. weren't you, I'd feelin' myself. I know, me, I'm Hoppin' Crone, Crow, Wailer, Oracle.'

'They're roles,' I said. crookedly.

'Yeah,' said. 'Peachy. It's audience.'

'Come on,' I said, 'you'll that. everything.'

'Eh,' said, frowning. 'I'm are. I'm a

.' wide. I marvelled, time, that. I couldn't. me, still.

'Bugger off,' I said. 'It's "Oh I'm beauty, I'm nothing." hoo, know?'

I rack. smirked.

'You a me,' drawled. 'Maybe understudy.'

'Up arse,' I said, irritated. momentarily.

'Give a break, Tecknor,' said. 'You've goin' think.' a apple.

'Who do,' absently.

'What? I don't anyone.'

'If me, else,' said. 'Do Ilkaya.'

I her. me. I crossed. uncrossed, I weren't, slightly.

'Go on,' said. 'Do Ilkaya.'

I a moment, down, chest, her.

'"Do nothing,"' I Ilkaya's cold, voice. '"You learn, know."' surprised, grinned.

'That's bad,' said.

'All well,' I said. 'I can't people.'

'Nah, nah, nah,' said, head. 'Don't that. They're impressions.'

'What they, then?' a moment, it, hadn't before.

'The I carryin' for,' said, ground. chin.

'Nah,' said, me. 'You've something. do. it.'

'All right,' I said, a mystified.

'I'll you,' said, 'if you'll me.'

'Yeah,' I said. 'Of course.' bemusement, else's.

'Dja who's me,' muttered, ''cause I'm dyin' a ride.'

***Â

I not, first, Avleen's me. a Chariot, do, eyes: a clown. I I offer. problem, always, Ilkaya. her. her. distant, insulting, her. hand, point, friends. skill, couldn't a a *tamasha* again. hadn't head, she'd head, her, her, her, wasn't did. a teacher. up.

***Â a Post, show, up, others. afterwards. a

, a show.

wasn't a clean, a threats. Messengers. it, a it, hadn't ourselves. it, I'll later. people. too. weren't Chariot, a stayer. We'll fast, Chariot. right, died, a field, after, out, it, couldn't them.

I don't '84, I did. scheduled. a marquee. a field. couldn't this. I it, hour, shit. ill, she'd minute. class, worst. so, back, there. usual.

'Are here,' said.

'Ilkaya,' said, 'do here. We're dogs.'

'This is,' said. 'Some perform, real, not. I a Chariot.' a field. a a shovel.

'If sick,' said, 'or loose...' paused, a a moment. waited.

? were? us.

'Go hole, a it,' said. 'This spreading. you, it, it, it.'

'We are,' said.

'Well,' said, 'I hole. I I do.' I a forehead.

'In fact,' added, 'it I a time, a ago.' us, time, I her.

'So,' said, 'there hole. gods. do. attend, can. clear?'

I a deep, breath, nodded.

'Good,' said. 'Shall on?' on, distress, a couldn't it. her. continued. again. him. usual, a feet. wasn't hole. time, though, didn't it, shirt. breath, 'All right, cease.' him.

'Dawvy Eeskra,' said, 'you learn. up.' a bit, I he'd well.

'I'm right,' mumbled. 'I going.'

'You cannot,' said. 'You rest, water.'

'No, honest.'

'Dawvy,' sharply, 'I you, yourself. learn. up?' feet, help, shoulders. stank. swallowed, I effort.

'I up,' said, 'and I healer. pass, Dawvy. part. better, soon. I promise. drink.' nodded. all.

'All right,' said. 'The continue. Deeny.'

'Yes, Ilkaya,' Shvaun.

'You others.' blinked.

'Yes, Ilkaya.'

'Attend her,' us, sharply. 'She anyone.'

Damn. praise.

(If I hadn't shit, then, you'd it. ) us, away, up. go. us. pale, I I, too, felt, a driver.

'Alright, bitches,' quietly. 'Shall this?' class.

***Â passed, we'd back, a different. a us.

But, well, a (me), a a she's a (Shvaun), a daddy's (Hanna), or, I directly, you're here,

(Dawvy), we'd us, us, did, fact, couldn't up, reassuring. personally.

I I at, though. I Avleen's I people. a boy, I parents, a 'city pig', I in. I spoke, a I myself. I didn't I anywhere. I village, I up, Terrasse, I'd born. hadn't a me. I people, were, spoke. I practising. easy. everyone, enough. easy: a to. I people, I've end't now. I others. a skill. Fire. meantime, I harness.

And, one, a Fire. me.

***Â a ready, Director. her. ceremony: harness, a night. day, a who'd it, weren't. it. it. it. it, it, she'd become, together. ever, a smile. left. along. I I didn't do. didn't I dance, I lines, I clown, theirs.

I dancer. I a voice. I I do. I done. But, Hanna, I couldn't there. Avleen, I couldn't

funny. when, (for me) class, spoke.

'Cormac Tecknor. I you.'

'I Jon, Ilkaya.'

'You not. I him.' entrance. wasn't a request, a command. a

, sympathetically. I Chariot. I out. left, a tent. one. I other.

'So,' said, 'we weeks, now, you.'

'I know.' moments. I I quit. I a to, again.

'This me,' said, 'because so, a teacher.'

'No it's not,' I said. 'It's me. I don't it.'

'But class,' said. 'You place. you. I I saw. do, doing?'

'No,' I said. 'I don't me.'

'Yet us,' said. 'That director. something. wrong?'

'I don't wrong,' I said, miserable, 'but I can't saw. it's me.' frowned.

'Do a prank.'

'No,' I said, calm, dispassionate, feeling, I right: wasn't joke, I

didn't fire.

I I didn't crying, I couldn't it.

I friends, nowhere, I couldn't Chariot.

'Cormac, weeping?'

I her. a away.

'I'm, just,' I mumbled. 'I... doesn't matter. I don't fire. I it, it'd now. I don't it. I can't Chariot.' a moment. frowned, a a me.

I back. disappointed, as... puzzled. weird.

'Let a walk,' said, up.

*** compound, forth, town.

I point, you. farewells. Chariot, it. Go, fortune. that, anyway. limits. We'd nights, a curiosity, a town, I age. Plus, I a tattoos.

I face. I withdrawn, speech. goodbye, ahead, resigned. Instead, interest. a stall, a apples, a wall, it. a evening, ordinary. air. Chariot. I least, me.

'What I now,' said.

'Um. I me, that...'

'No,' said, a finger. 'No, no.' paused.

'Do me,' said, me.

'What?'

'Say I it.'

I a startled. I it, I shoulders, lap, Ilkaya's manner, a stream.

'"Cormac,"' I said, light, voice, '"it you. all, err. erred, own. way, you, us."'

Then, say, I stopped, blinked, I again.

I her. wasn't me. listening. a face.

'Now leaving,' said.

I bidding, I thought: well, it.

I Dawvy, weight, impulsiveness, I him.

'"Huh,"' I said. '"Typical fuckin' Boy. Can't a goodbye. go. Well, it, then. a it. Feckin' eejit. Still. mind."' slowly.

'Now Deeny,'' said.

I her, again. I do. I Shvaun, myself, I thought, hoped, say.

'"I go,"' I said, voice. '"But I here."' oddly. square, a inn, a girl.

'What's mind,' softly, him.

I mind. I guy. lordly, ladies' man. smiling, girls: it.

I town. I that.

'"So,"' I said, '"I've elsewhere, lately, and, uh, I opportunities coming. I I happy, you're a favours."'

'And what's saying,' murmured.

'"You're I'm interested,"' I said, '"but I a won't a wife, I'll ya."' I embarrassed. a moment, apple. it, swallowed.

'What Chariot,' said. strange. I thinking. place, a me, himself.

'"Well, later,"' I said, ears. '"I'm a herbalist's country. I Chariot. I don't Fire. I don't fuckin' *is*. a day, I hands, I don't all."' out, I I'd something. I Ilkaya. a appalled.

'Hm,' said.

'What?'

'Well, rest, you.'

I dumbly.

'You else,' said, up.

I too. head, village.

'What is... ways, Fire. itself, body.

, uniqueness.

.

.'

'Right.' me, I didn't it. I about. I friends.

'What have,' said, 'is else. "Legion".'

I her.

'What have,' said, 'is Chariot, chosen. again, Legion.'

'What it?' a moment.

'I you,' said, 'but I insulting.'

'Maybe, is.'

'Very well.' paused, hips, a moment, me.

'Cormac,' said, 'the that, yourself, particular. want.'

I in. others. I nobody. a that.

'I others, walk,' said. 'And... I

. I curious, a monstrous. I gods, I audience, I I play, I

. can.' a specialness.

'Wow. So, it's rare, then?'

'Actually, no,' said, smiling. come.

'Everyone us, here, a it,' said. 'It life. play, on. others. I do.' folk, business, helplessly.

'It credit,' said, I'd her. a failure.

'I aim. gods. I it. I else, it.' me.

'But you. folk, Chariot. a divinity, one's fire. nobody, own, others.'

'Hey,' I said, annoyed. 'I friends. I people.'

'Yes, I know,' said. 'You you, you, loveable. know, not, them, a copy? Fire, not. alone, Legion.'

hand, intently.

'The possess, possess, another, face, , role.

'But easily, easily. you, that. Because, one's it, Chariot.' thump. me, saying.

'So, wait,' I said, dry. 'Does I'm...' shoulders. he'd before.

'It I offer, I a I, least, you. I you, Cormac: Harness? will, a you. it, leave.'

I friends, mind.

'Yes,' I said. 'Yes, please, Ilkaya. I work.'

'I will,' said. 'But I you. things, you.'

'Doesn't matter. I'll it.'

'I it,' said, wasn't smiling, I me, herself, too, I had.

'Then,' said, 'I Harness.'

I nodded. back.

'And I do,' said, 'I you, I you.' I anything, lips. away, a breath, slightly. I dizzy.

'It harness,' said. 'You that. back?' in. dazed, I hers. turned, came.

'As moment,' on, a conversational voice, 'and Harness, Ilkaya. Stirk. I Regesne, Hargest.'

'I me.'

'I true. I others, us. mind.'

'Why I mind? Chariot's strong, isn't it?'

'Yes,' said. 'For now.'

I didn't Ilkaya, Tova, that.

I enough.

'Um, Stirk.'

'Call Tova.'

'That to.'

'What it, Cormac.'

'D'you something?'

'I anything. I secrets.'

'Well, I was.' nodded.

'It's fine,' said. 'Ask away.'

'What it?'

'"Antfucker",' said, I laughed, smiled.

*** night, tent. a night. Director's table, folk, a women, other. a a me, I weren't. Shepard, a Karpen, Drid, Makange, a Chariot's accountant, a dancers: Naidoo, Zhao, Yang, Zvayis, Sargento.

(It's night. know. )

I hungry, I didn't there, me, I myself. souls. a I I others, a together. a me. beer. I up, me.

'What's celebration,' said.

'Cormac harness,' proudly. me, surprised. I around.

'You it?' said.

'Well, a while,' I said.

'But it,' said, beaming. 'That's wonderful, lad. I different. Here.' me. I his, mine. proud. Ella, Liang, vests, over, Ella, honey, forehead.

'I luck,' said.

'Really?' I said, I I'd others, who'd me'd they'd a I was.

(And ask, reason? doof. )

'Aw,' Guang, a eyes. 'What a boy.' mortification lips.

I a I up, lips, forehead, nose, girls, blush.

I a face, inside, again, cackling. Jon, forehead, embarrassment. table, who'd a me.

'I didn't a thing,' I I beer. usual, bitter.

'Taking hurdle,' said. 'More audition. a nobody. It's fall.'

'But it, though,' I said. paused, laughed, over.

'

I

didn't,' said, me. 'Why I'm animals? I couldn't it, Cormac, see? them.'

'Yeah,' I said, 'but... I did, Chariot.'

'Some ways,' said. 'We can't wonderful.' day, day, after.

*** a night, weren't morning, perform, a usual. a while, a me, I a piss, I tent.

I again, I sky. a bit, I was, beer. I Compass, Harp, Crucible, I dad's stars. there, I thought, Otherworld. isn't.

'So are,' a voice. 'Done back, last.'

I down, there, leg, hips.

'Sorry,' I said. 'I a while.'

'I you'd it,' said.

'You said.'

'There's saying. know. I easy. way. That's... good.'

I me.

'So we're gods,' I said.

'Looks it.'

'I dunno,' I said, 'do we're it?'

'I dunno,' said. ground, me.

'I don't it,' I said.

'That's point, twat,' said. 'This beginning. a me.' arm, camp.

'All right, Tecknor,' dark, grass, 'look, before, I didn't you'd here. I knew, day, tomorrow. I I it, I didn't you.' me.

'I a that,' I said, hurt, much, doubt.

'You're smart,' said, grass. 'I me. I've much, I I've it,

they've a more.' a tent.

'You could've worried,' I said.

'And would've better?' disbelief. 'No chance. You'd more.'

'Suppose I have,' I said.

'Course have,' said. 'Cause you're a twat.'

'Shvaun Deeny, gentlemen,' I said. 'Friend, encourager, companions.'

'Look, I don't know,' exclaimed. 'I'm too. I don't teach. I dance.'

I her.

'What,' said.

'There's doesn't about...'

I stopped, a smile.

'What's matter, Tecknor,' quietly. 'Come

. I all, like, a

, on, boy. do? What's not? We're way. you're something...'

'So them,' I said.

'Maybe I I don't,' said, 'but I a I one.'

I silent. shirt. I shivered.

'I stupid,' I said. 'Did stupid?'

'Yeah,' said. 'Little bit.'

'So it's me, then,' I said.

'No,' said. 'But me, I meant. everyone.

' me, smiled.

'Now I know,' said. 'I mean, a dance...' face, and, I mean, I couldn't no.

'I'm sorry,' I said, 'I I've a shit.'

'More a bit,' said. 'But you've good.'

I sagely, a a drunk. I blinked, closer. face, fact.

'I'll thing, though,' said, ear, urgent.

'What's that.'

'I luck,' muttered, me.

I Shvaun's waist, me, mine. mine, me, a time.

(I wasn't 'lost'. I I was. ) starlight.

'So, I'm right,' I said, 'it's me?'

'Yes,' said.

'That's very...'

'Yes, is, isn't it,' said, kiss. case, things. I, secure, other, you, Kelly.

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